I upset God and I feel like sometimes im jus living for the sake of it, I feel like im not worthy for anything?

Remember, his qualities are all good (kind, loving, forgiving, reliable, trustworthy- the list is endless) and he is the God of Justice. Read 2Chronicles 7vs14 to know what we should do to please him and to gain strength use Proverbs 3 vs 6-7. Jehovah forgives if you truly show that you wont disrespect him because he does not rely on what we say but by searching our hearts. Seek him first and all shall be filled. If one lost sheep is returning it makes the Shepherd smile God our father and his beloved son Jesus Christ will be very happy to welcome you back. I am also happy that there are people out there who look for God for guidance.