He was my first love . when we were together he really loved me dat tym . he never showed disinterest in me . ?

i understand ur feelings. i blieve its better 2 be moved frm dat place for a while, be friendly with everyone try to spend most of the time with children who are under age of 10 play with them, read some interesting stories, u knw ur mind will not accept u 2 do all these things bcz u love him.if at all he is just a fake thing. remove him from ur heart,why i said above things is to get control over ur moods... u knw 1 thing i read a book(BIBLE) daily,really dat changed my life, i had d same love story u had. Believe Who You Are. right....TAke CAre